DISCLAIMER: Everything told in this story is from my, Rayzor’s point of view, I changed the names of the parties involved to protect their identities.
A DEFTONES SHIRT!!! Maybe, just maybe we are meant to be together, right?
Maybe not, I did find an interesting subject to finally talk to her about. The Deftones are my favorite band and they were back in 2002. From that moment on, I finally got the chance to talk to her. At one point I realized the season was closing in on us and nothing happened. So I asked her if she wanted to hang out after work.
I picked her up, not knowing how close she was to me this entire time. She was living on campus at the college, not 5 minutes from my house. I remember walking to her dorm room and thinking about how amazing it would have been to date her. She lived so close.
Let me explain, I lived in this town, Trenton. Trenton is a small town and about 30 minutes from the more populated areas around me. Toys r us was 30 minutes away. Most of my friends and the girls I dated were, 30 minutes or more away. So this was big for me. I just wish I’d approached her sooner.
We hung out at her place for a few and talked. Over the few days at work we learned more about each other. It seemed like we had a mutual attraction and I really felt good vibes coming from her as well. Suddenly, I had the urge to kiss her and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Its that moment you want to make it happen and you don’t know how. How to make your move or how she would react. Even though the agony was killing me, she looked so good. I had to fight this temptation.
We finally get in her car to go get some late dinner. I asked her to run to my atm to grab some cash. She is telling me about school and future plans, all while I cannot stop thinking about how amazing kissing her would be. Finally we pull into the atm and I get my money as I put it in my wallet I decided to go for it. I made my move and leaned over and kissed her. I’ll never forget that nervous feeling right before it happened. My mind suddenly stopped and in my head I said, “fuck it.”
We were kissing in her car at the ATM, hell we we making out at the atm. When I slowly pulled away, she smiled at me and I knew then, we had something. We ended up going to Dennys to eat and talk about, whatever. We mostly talked about the kiss. She told me that she had been waiting for that moment since I arrived at her dorm room. She asked me why then? I told her, “I wanted to do it all night, but I was trying to play it cool. Then something came over me. You looked so good, I just wondered, what would happen if we kissed.”
She smiled really big and got a little shy. I remember thinking, “what next?” I didn’t expect to go back to her place and have sex, no. I really liked her and wanted to try and build something. We did go back to her place and made out a lot and it was really nice. Laying in her bed and holding on to her. I barely knew her, yet I felt so close.
The following day at work, we were that typical “new love” type couple. When we say each other in the store we would smile and lock eyes. She would mouth words to me and I would have no idea what she was saying because I cannot lip read. It went on like this for a few days. Seems like things are going really well and from my point of view, we were really into each other, I know for sure I was in to her. But…
Join me next week for the final part of the story. For now enjoy a song! More Deftones, I do not remember listening to much music with Tracy or any at all.